November 6, 2019

You know that saying, when the Universe closes a door, it opens a window somewhere else in your life?  I've always liked that idea, and I have tried to lean in to it.
Then there's that other one, "God won't give you more than you can handle."
I fucking hate that one!  It' makes me want to scream, "What the hell made you think I could handle this??"

Door after door had closed, I just wasn't convinced windows were actually opening and I was starting to feel like I might suffocate.  The door to Twin closed and it almost killed me.  The door to Vampire closed.  And while I knew that was definitely for my highest good, the damage he did on the way out made the whole thing exponentially worse, and sent me spiraling back i...

August 27, 2019

Spiritual Awakening rarely happens gently.  Unless you've been raised by spiritually awake people and have "woke" as long as you can remember, it's much more common for spiritual awakening to feel more like being hit in the head with a two by four.  Something happens that completely shifts your perception of reality and you realize things will never be the same.

For me, it was when Michael died.  Not only did he start connecting with me from the "other side," he also began manipulating things in my world as well.  For one, he enhanced the communication between Twin (Him) and I so our connection deepened much faster than it would have, had it been allowed to develop more naturally.  But Michael had an ag...

August 9, 2019

I don't know what possessed me but, one day I woke up with a major need to get my hands on some Tarot cards.  I don't think I'd ever even seen a deck up close and yet I felt like I needed to have one, now. Not really knowing where to go, I decided to start with the Barnes & Noble down the hill from my house.  It seemed as good a place to start as any other and oddly enough, they had some. It seemed odd to me anyway, that such a commercial place would have metaphysical anything.  And, it gave me a giggle that they even had two different kinds of Tarot decks. Whatever this sudden urge to own Tarot cards was about, one of the available options seemed to suitably quell the need.  The cards felt good in my hands and, stra...

June 30, 2019

Someone in the class asked if I was a Medium.  I remember it so clearly, I laughed and said, "Me, no! I can't do that!"  

It's really important to be careful with your words...

Almost from the moment I opened my mind to it, the voices started arriving.  At first it was one, then two more, then five or six, until very quickly, I felt like I was surrounded.  

Years ago, my husband was touring with Metallica as the Lighting Director and, when the tour came to LA they played at the Colosseum.  It's Big.  I went to see the show of course, and watched from up in the "condo;" a scaffolding tower in the middle of the field where the sound, lighting and follow-spot folks worked during the show.  From my...

May 12, 2019

The class was called Beyond Psychic Protection and going there was like finding a long-lost piece of myself.  I couldn't wait to go back.  I continued to ask my guides to send me someone I could work with and wondered if perhaps the person I was looking for was in this class...

Have you ever had the experience where you meet someone and shake their hand, and energy just shoots up your arm?  That's what happened the first time we met.  We were browsing in the store before class and I introduced myself, having recognized the face from the week before.  When we shook hands, I felt an immediate electric charge run up my arm and my Third Eye snapped open as if someone had come up behind me and yelled "BOO!!"...

April 30, 2019

Now what the hell do I do?

I was alone again and in a situation I didn't understand.  

Something more was going on with me and, I felt so pulled to understand what it was. 

I had asked the Universe to please send me someone I could work with, who could help me understand.  


The Universe sent the Narcissist... Ugh!

Thanks to him, I felt like I'd been thrown from a great height, and shattered pieces of me were now strewn all over the ground.  I was losing the battle against the darkness and I knew it.  I had no idea how to put the pieces of myself back together and, I didn't know if I could survive the darkness, again.  I needed help in a big way.

I asked the Universe, PLEASE send a woman...

February 9, 2019

He left!  He just fucking left!! 
What is it with people?! 
I'd never experienced this kind of behavior before and now, TWO people had turned on a dime and walked out of my life, without a word.  And, any effort to try and fix the situation was met with more silence or outright anger. What the fuck!? 

Because empaths have the ability to let people come so far inside of us, we feel emotions much more intensely.  Empaths do not handle betrayal well at all and I could feel myself being pulled back into darkness.

A blinding rage I hadn't felt since fighting with BofA, took over my heart and twisted my insides into knots. I had allowed this to happen!  I brought it...

December 19, 2018

For two weeks I waited... 

He'd texted me a few times but the new theme continued; sexual conquest and the "plans" he had for me upon his return... 

sigh... it wasn't supposed to be like this...  I just wanted to talk to the boy...

Unfortunately, the only way I knew how to do that was through him... the Energy Vampire. 

Crap. 

The soul of the boy had stayed with me for almost a decade, waiting for me to re-open the metaphysical doors on my life.  But WHY??  I had a thousand questions, I just wasn't sure how many hoops was I going to have to jump through to get to the answers. 

In reality, the bigger issue was that all of this was happening while I was still reeling from my father's stroke, and...

November 7, 2018

It continued to niggle at me...  I am the boy, I am the boy...
Finally, in a meditation, he came to me.  He couldn't have been more than three and, he skipped in a circle around me, blonde hair flapping along, singing "I am the boy-oy... I am the boy-oy..." 

And then, the information came raining down, as if I had tossed a large pile of paper into the air.  Images, words, pieces of a thought or a memory, began falling all around me.  Little bits of a "something" each placed onto what seemed like pieces of transparency film.  Now, all I had to do was figure out how to put all the layers together... 

It had been several months since He left and the hole in my heart had finally...

October 3, 2018

In that time, he was still my friend.  In truth, he would be a tremendous help to me during an incredibly difficult time.  But fear and uncertainty, as we waited to see what would happen with my dad, took my energy to a very low place, making me easy to manipulate.  

A few days later, he invited me to meet for drinks and continue our conversation.  My stress levels had been off the chart so I was grateful for the distraction.  He was easy to be with, he always seemed happy and had a great sense of whimsy.  A much needed escape from the reality that my dad was going through a serious health crisis and no one was really sure yet, what kind of damage would be left by this stroke.  So, over some really good...

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